”Fragile”
Tuesday - Day after BattleGrounds 74
Location: Hotel room in Anaheim, CA Blyss is tossing and turning in bed. No matter how much she tries to get comfortable or how exhausted and sore she is, her mind will not stop replaying the final moments of the match. And creeping up from memory as well is that fight at Post Oak Boulevard in Houston.
Blyss makes it back to her feet and turns towards Gordon and he charges out of the corner look for his signature spear but just before impact, Blyss throws a lightning fast right knee to jaw and Gordon crashes to the mat!
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With a scream, Blyss forces herself back to her feet, kicking the pipe wrench out of her hand, followed by a sharp elbow to Kasey's nose, knocking her down. However, the force of the kick sends the pipe straight into the jaw of Gordon, knocking him out, and sending him face first into the pavement. Blood begins running from his face.
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Blyss goes down and flips Gordon over for the cover but stops just before she does. She notices Gordon isn't moving. At all. His eyes are closed, his body is completely limp. Blyss's eyes go wide as she shakes him by his shoulders. She shakes him again, harder this time, and Gordon still doesn't move. Tears start to well up in her eyes. Still no response from Gordon as Blyss holds her hands over her mouth, the tears start streaming down her face.
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As Kasey staggers backwards holding her nose, Blyss wipes the blood from her own mouth and smirks. Then she looks up just as Gordon falls to the ground. She drops down next to him, horrified at seeing the amount of his blood.
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Gordon comes to life, shooting up to his feet, before jumping in the air and grabbing Blyss's head, slamming her neck into Gordon's knee as she whiplashes from the impact!
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She notices the wrench by his face and instantly, she knows what just happened. She's hit by a wave of regret and wipes her tears.
"Gordon, I'm so sorry!"
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Gordon looks at Blyss and takes a step towards her but rethinks his actions and hangs his head instead.
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Blyss looks distraught as suddenly the lights go out.
[ f a d e ]Sleep continues to elude her as she stares at the ceiling. The promise she’s held in her heart now dangles from her fingers over the edge of the bed. She wants to keep it, she really does. But time is what she needs and time is what she gets.
She leaves the hard covers of the bed and makes her way to the bathroom. Splashing cold water on her face, she studies the face that is reflected in the mirror. Familiar yet strange. Wait, isn’t that her? Yes, that’s supposed to be her. She’s standing there, isn’t she? And she’s alone.
Dark... Darkness... Nothing but darkness... She sighs, burying her face in a towel. She puts it aside and stares back in the mirror. She sees her weak attempt of a smile.
Blyss Lockhart
Everything’s going to be fine.
Time is what she needs and time is what she gets. Time for a run then.
She sees my good deeds
And she kisses me windy
I never worry
Now that is a lie
Tuesday - Day after BattleGrounds 75
Location: Somewhere on the road Music is blasting from the car stereo, the front seat windows are open and there aren’t that many vehicles on the road either. Blyss has been driving for a few hours but she doesn’t feel like stopping to rest. It’s like she’s on autopilot right now and the longer she stays on the road, the sooner she’ll reach her destination. She seems to be heading towards home but home isn’t really where she wants to be.
Just keep on going... Pass it. Pass it! She presses harder on the gas pedal with her foot, passing by the turn to I-80. She grips the steering wheel and glances at the rear view mirror.
Nothing good comes from the past. You know that very well, don’t you? A new song begins to play, its music suddenly extra loud and disturbing. What is this? She doesn’t recognize it. Her ears hurt, her head aches. Yet her hands remain stubbornly on the wheel.
You’re listening to the wrong things. What should you be doing? You know this damn well too! You’re losing focus on what’s important for you especially your career! That match loss was hard proof that you’re slipping again! Don’t you dare allow that to happen this week! Your title will be on the line! All that hard work towards winning it, do you want it all down the drain?! Keep your eyes on the prize! A truck horn blares as the vehicle tailgates her. Shocked, she nearly drives her car off the road.
See what could have happened there? What’s holding your attention? Do you even know what you’re doing anymore? She looks at the truck and shifts gear, pressing even harder on the gas pedal. Her lips pursed, her heart races. Quickly, she catches up to the truck and slams a fist on the car horn as she glares the driver. But he just glances at her and speeds up. She hits the horn again twice and with her hand out the window, she gives him the middle finger gesture. This only makes him chuckle, frustrating her even more.
What do you want to do now, Blyss? She glances at the rear view mirror and back at the truck. They’re now side by side, taking turns to be just a few inches in front of the other.
If you really want something, do it. Hesitations will only make you slip. You don’t want that to happen again, do you? This man is ridiculing you. He thinks he’s better than you. The truck driver revs up the engine and goes really near to her car, taunting her. Then he moves away at a safe distance again, laughing. Without thinking, she swerves the car close to the truck. The vehicles are nearly touching each other.
You’re so close right now, Blyss! What do you want to do?! She grips the wheel tighter then relaxes, shifting back down the gear and moving the car away from the truck. She goes off the road and parks the car. Resting her head on the wheel, she squeezes her eyes shut in disappointment.
Weak. She turns her head and watches the traffic that passes by, her cheek on her hand on the wheel.
Is this what you desire for? Do nothing as everything else passes you by? Leaving you immobile in its wake? You were never like this. You were stronger and more capable to take what’s yours. Every bit of victory counts. Your career is a road to the biggest one of all and you were doing well until recently. There is nothing personal about your life anymore. Everybody knows, they can all see. From the words that you post on social networks to the things that you say in promos and interviews.
You’re under the limelight and you’re slowly crumbling. But I can be that shadow to protect you from the glare. You created that shadow, remember? And I’m still as dark as the thoughts you keep at the back of your mind. The ones you push and bury further and further away because you were taught to be more positive and whatever else nonsense your father paid them to tell you.
Light can easily be taken out by darkness because eventually it goes away but darkness is always there. It waits in the corners, it never leaves. Why look for light when all it does is expose your weaknesses, making you vulnerable and weak? This is the true nature of light, the ugly truth behind it. That light you seek in other people is nothing but a false hope. And when you meet someone like you, you pretend to see it in them to make yourself feel better. They know not to look for something that doesn’t exist and you should have learnt that a long time ago.
You have left them all once but you keep crawling back to the ones that hurt you, that don’t understand you. Why let them shape you, mould you into this person that they can break easily? Why let them control you, manipulate you when it’s YOUR life? Do you not want to live, my dear Blyss?
End this cycle. Cut them out. All of them. Aren’t you tired? You are and I know that. Very well, really. Because I’m a part of you.
Forever... and always.
I don't ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
Sunday
Location: Dad’s place in North Aurora, IL It’s in the middle of the Lockhart family brunch for Father’s Day and Blyss is absentmindedly pushing food around on her plate. Conversation carries on without her contributing. She hears her sister Kenzie talking about something but nothing registers. A few minutes later, Kenzie’s cell phone rings and she excuses herself to answer it in the living room. Blyss doesn’t even realize this until her father calls her name.
Dad
...Melyssa?
As if waking from a dream, Blyss looks up slowly and frowns a little.
Blyss Lockhart
Yeah Dad?
Dad
You’ve been very quiet all morning. Everything alright?
Blyss Lockhart
Uh yeah... Everything’s fine.
Dad
(chuckles) Can’t fool your old man, my little one. How’s work been? I missed the show last week. Only came back from that fishing trip on Tuesday morning. And I think I missed the one before that too and the PPV. I’m so sorry about that, honey.
Blyss Lockhart
It’s fine.
Dad
Still the Phoenix champion?
Blyss Lockhart
Yep...
Dad
(smiles) Good.
Blyss raises an eyebrow at that. What does that mean?
He’s only proud of you if you achieved something worthy. He doesn’t care about anything else that goes on in your life. But you don’t live to please him, do you, Blyss? Her father takes another bite off a piece of salmon omelette and chews slowly. Blyss watches as he drinks from his glass of water before eating again. The sounds seem to echo in her brain and sound louder in her ears. She looks down on her plate of half eaten tofu scramble and pushes it away in mild disgust.
Dad
(concerned) What’s the matter, honey?
Blyss Lockhart
Sorry, I’m just not that hungry right now.
He puts down his cutleries and looks at her, waiting. She doesn’t need to see his face to know the expression he’s wearing right now. That look he used to give her everyday when they butted heads about things that made her mad at him. When she felt that he didn’t and couldn’t understand why she was angry with him. When all he wanted was the best for his younger daughter and all she saw was her father abandoning her.
Get up and leave. Now. Dad
You are not leaving this table, Melyssa, until you tell me what’s bothering you.
He’s a lousy father! He has no words of solace for you. Never had and never will. The old memory of that look on his face appears clearly in her mind. She stares stubbornly at her clenched fists on her lap.
You know he’s tried too hard to be both parents to you and he fails all the damn time! Your mother died that night and along he went with her. He made you sick and sent you away for therapy when he was the one who needed it the most! Her knuckles turn white and she closes her eyes, suddenly realizing how hard she’s breathing.
Dad
(concerned) Melyssa?
Her eyes open widely as she looks up at her father. That image of him from years ago doesn’t match the one before her. There is no “look”. His green eyes, soft and sincere, stares back with great worry. That old scowl is now only but a memory from her adolescent years.
Dad
We haven’t really talked in a while and I know being on the road keeps you busy but you’re home now. You and your sister cooked a lovely meal today and I appreciate it very much. But we can’t just sit down and eat without talking. This house is very quiet without the two of you, you know.
There’s light humor in his tone but it’s obvious he truly means it. Blyss purses her lips, looking down once again. This time, her hands no longer feel tensed and instead, she begins to feel guilty. It’s Father’s Day after all and such occasions have been celebrated in their family for as long as she can remember, keeping that tradition when they can. It’s the kind of thing that they do to maintain that sense of normalcy in the house even if they have to pretend for the sake of it sometimes. Today feels like one of those times for Blyss and she still hasn’t quite figured out yet why... or just simply refuses to see it.
Blyss Lockhart
I have a big match coming up next week with a fellow champion. The winner keeps the unified title. So I’m worried that won’t be me.
The words roll off her tongue almost effortlessly.
Lying usually is... Rejuvenating, is it not? Her father eyes her curiously, sensing she’s hiding something else. He waits and says nothing. The silence makes her uncomfortable as it jolts back memories of being back in that therapist’s office.
Blyss Lockhart
I’ve worked so hard to get that championship and then retain it for the past couple of months. This guy I’ll be facing is a powerful man. He’s way more experienced in the ring than me and won his title on the same night as his debut match in the Insurgency. He’s also the leader of a growing stable and prior to signing here, he’s won numerous championships from various companies. If I don’t beat him, not only do I lose my title but I will also lose my reputation.
Blyss almost yells out that last word as the tone of her voice suddenly hardens. Her right hand claws into her thigh, reopening healed scars.
Go for it, Blyss. Go. Blyss Lockhart
I was on a goddamn winning streak since before Homecoming which was two fucking pay-per-views ago and boy, did that end on a humiliating note. I survived challenge after challenge with my head still held high until two weeks ago. I slipped, DAD, and I fell FLAT ON MY FACE! I HAD HIM! I FUCKING HAD HIM!
Blyss bangs her fists on the table, biting her lower lip so hard that she can taste blood. Her father stares back in shock, blinking. Kenzie comes rushing in, still clutching her cell phone. Blyss stops and stares dejectedly at the table.
Blyss Lockhart
But I lost.
She shakes her head, holding back tears.
Blyss Lockhart
And I’m okay...
Her voice trembles as she shakes her head again.
Blyss Lockhart
I’m okay... I’m okay...
She wipes her eyes and looks up. Fresh tears starts to glisten.
Blyss Lockhart
I’m okay.
She nods her head and looks away, wiping her eyes once more.
Dad
No, Mel--
Blyss Lockhart
DON’T!
She points a finger at him accusingly. Her eyes wide with both rage and fear. A teardrop falls down her left cheek.
Blyss Lockhart
Don’t you tell me what I’m feeling! Don’t you dare. If I say this is it, then this is it. Don’t you dare tell me no. Never again, Dad, never!
Kenzie Lockhart
Liss--
Blyss turns sharply to her sister, still pointing a finger.
Blyss Lockhart
WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST SAY?! Just stop it! Stop it!
Kenzie rushes in to wrap her arms around her. Her father stands up immediately and does the same. Blyss wants nothing more than to break out of this but she finds no energy to fight back.
Now this matches an old memory, doesn’t it, my dear Blyss? Stony-faced, she lets them smother her with their concerns and their pity.
For now.
Happy Father’s Day. Axe oh axe oh...
Under the bridge downtown
Is where I drew some blood
Under the bridge downtown
I could not get enough
Monday
Location: Energy Solutions Arena in Salt Lake City, Utah The scene opens to Blyss sitting on one of those foldable tables that’s set up against the wall in the hallway of the building. Facing the left side of the camera, she has her knees propped up and her elbows on them. She runs her hands through her hair and rests them around her neck as she steals a quick glance at the camera before continuing to look straight ahead.
Blyss Lockhart
This week is an interesting week for me as well as my opponent. We’re both champions in our own rights. We carve our titles to represent our worth as competitors. To represent what we feel is who we are inside and what the belts should be. When we carry them on our shoulders or wear them around our waists, we want people to take just one look at them and understand the kind of fighter that we are. They are weighted gold of honor, respect and strength. Having them in our possession drives a different kind of motivation for us. We have proven that we can indeed win the prize but how long can we keep it? We’ve both defended our individual titles at least once against contenders that may or may not deserve that opportunity. Now we’re facing each other, champ versus champ, and only one walks away with a belt. You’ve just had a similar match against Sheyanne Successful and then again against Ethan Cage but without risking your title. Big win against the world champion. Good job. You must be feeling pretty confident of yourself going into our match, right? If you can beat Ethan, surely you can beat me. Right?
At the last word, she turns her face slightly towards the camera with a raised eyebrow. There’s a hint of a smile but her eyes give away nothing, hiding her true emotions.
Blyss Lockhart
Remember what you told me on Twitter, Thor? Arrogance is what’s keeping you from curling up in a ball of self defeat? Well, isn’t it gonna be so much fun when I win that unified championship? Imagine the leader of the creepy ass we-do-blood-bath-induction-ceremonies-in-the-ring down for the count, humbled in defeat. Let me tell you this, champ. Arrogance is a mask you wear to hide your insecurities. That fear you try to put away doesn’t fool me, it only fools you. You’re not invincible, Thor. You never were and you never will be. You like to play mind games with your stupid Empire of Blood shit?
She suddenly swings her legs over the table’s side, facing directly at the camera. Her hair covers part of her face but one can see pure anger in her left eye.
Blyss Lockhart
Well, fuck you! I’ll admit though, Storming Raven wasn’t doing too well when you came along but the fact that you recruited him to be part of your brotherhood makes me sick! That is NOT helping him, you sick fuck! I hope Raven wakes up real soon and realizes he’s been had! You’re only out for yourself! Not this business, not your “brothers”. You have no legacy, Thor! Your actions in this company have tainted what you think was your pride. Your plans to grow that stable of yours will not come to life because you know why?! Empires don’t fucking last! Especially here in the Insurgency. Read up on the company history, Thor! You have multiple degrees, don’t you?! So many past groups have all fallen. None survives till today! Take the last stable for example. The Empire. Its name so close to yours. And its fate will repeat for yours because that’s what history does! It fucking repeats when idiots like you don’t learn! It comes back to haunt everybody who’s stupid enough to stay stubborn and do the same fucking thing again and again. “Beware the power of stupid people”. Yeah that pretty much sums you up except you think you have the power but the fact of the matter is that you don’t. So naturally, the Empire of Blood will fall. It has no place here. Take a look around you, Thor! History doesn’t care if you know it or not because Mother Nature’s a bitch! YOU should take the initiative to not only learn from your own mistakes but from what past shitheads did too! YOU should know by now how this company runs and who runs this place! YOU should get your head out of your ass and stop being so fucking ambitious about things that WILL fail. YOU--
Blyss stops to catch her breath. By now, she’s already jumped off the table and the camera has backtracked as she steps closer to it at each “YOU”. Her fists clench and unclench by her sides. When she speaks again, the tone of her voice turns calmer yet one can sense an underlying frustration. She raises her Phoenix championship belt to the camera.
Blyss Lockhart
This title means so much to me that you can never understand. It represents every waking minute that I spent training and conditioning to stay in my best form, every agonizing moment when I thought I couldn’t do it but I did, every leap forward that I took to gain what I’ve set out to do since I laced up my first pair of wrestling boots. When I was in that dirty old gym on Irving Park Road trying not to feel guilty for sneaking in without paying for a class but finally feel like I fit in somewhere, I dreamt of a moment like this. I envisioned what this day right now would be like and I strongly believe that when I walk out of this arena tonight, I will carry that unified title over my shoulder. Just like how I carried over the significance of a female championship when I changed it to the Phoenix title, I will make damn sure that a woman will beat you and be crowned the first ever Uprising Phoenix champion.
She relaxes her posture and brushes her hair behind her ears.
Blyss Lockhart
This woman you’ll be facing tonight won’t be the same one that lost two weeks ago. Or the one they call “a wrecking crew”. No... (shakes her head) It’s simply Blyss Lockhart and that means... (smirks) Me. I am so many things, Thor, that it doesn’t matter how much you can guess. You can watch all the tapes of my past matches over and over again. You can go around to my friends and my enemies to know what kind of competitor I am. Hey, you don’t even have to go so far. Just ask your “brother” how I kicked his ass at Homecoming. Or you can even get your boys to execute some sort of attack on me before, during or after our match tonight. Just try, Thor. Come and test me! (spreads her arms) I welcome you to do your best, or worst, and find out firsthand what it’s like to fight me and FAIL. What it’s like to maintain that arrogance and poor sense of security and FAIL. What it’s like to face that goddamn Blyzzard and fail...
Leaning closer to the camera, her voice falters. Her eyes seem to search for something as she speaks in a low voice, one corner of her mouth turning upwards. Her tone is light and slightly mocking.
Blyss Lockhart
Your time as champion is over, Sah’ta Thor. As quickly as you gained it, I will take it away. There can only be one that rises from the ashes of this fight and that is the Phoenix. (grins) The current Phoenix champion.
She raises her title high over her head and slaps hard on the face plate before wearing it around her waist. She bows down slightly and blows a kiss to the camera before turning on her heels and walking away.
Under the bridge downtown
I gave my life away
Here I stay, here I stay
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OOC”Under The Bridge” lyrics by RHCP