....It just felt right, after how I had seen Christian so easily take over and actually enjoy doing it during the OP I had to approach CC about what was going on inside of me...We were driving away from the drop and headed back to the wherehouse to get rid of the van and dispose of any lingering evidence when I turned to him, my face glowing in the eerie light of the dash...
VVR
Casey…can I tell you something?
"Ha, he was going to tell CC about our lil situation I could feel him tensing up. Hear his thoughts as he mulled over exactly how to put it, I mean how do you tell someone you are a split prsonality, and have the actually believe you. I loved the tension he felt, I fed off of it. I wasn't all bad, but just bad enough he didn't like it. He would have never ever been able to do what I did as a part of 8. That was all me and he knew it....
Corey Casey
Sure
It was almost painful, having two personalities warring inside you for control. Especially, when we both were so strong and bull headed. How do you tell someone you have something in you, something that if you let him have control, if you let him run free, you are afraid you might never come back....I guess you just tell them....
VVR
I think that there…there is something wrong with me
" I was screaming with everything I had...No CC he is wrong, There is nothing wrong at all. He just has a higher calling, one he is too niave or too stupid to realize cannot be accomplished with the simple flesh given to him by his creator. Looking at CC I knew he had some sort of understanding of the "Other" Vinnie and I were dealing with and like us he struggled at first, but the way he carried himself, he must have come to some sort of understanding. Yes he is the one we needed....He will make Vinnie see...
Corey Casey
What do you mean?
....I could feel Christian raging right under the surface closer and closer with each breath, he wanted out and he wanted to be the one to accomplish what I had worked so hard for, it was Christian and only him who could do this in his eyes. I was trying to hide my inner turmoil from CC but I knew, just knew he could see deeper than I thought....
VVR
Well…I feel like there is this complete other…person, I guess, dwelling inside of me. He’s a part of me and everything…but he’s dark...you could almost call him “evil” I guess…
" I couldn't help but laugh, Evil is not quite the word for what I am, my friend. I will help you through sheer and utter will and determination this poor flesh cannot hope to achieve. It is only through me that you will achieve what is meant of you....You will see this Vinnie, I wanted to shake him and tell him he was a fool, but I had a feeling CC would take care of that for me....
Corey Casey
VVR…there is no good or evil my friend. There is only power. There are two types of people: those who do the manipulating and those who are being manipulated. Those who are doing the manipulating are those that are in power, they make the rules that the rest of the peons who are too afraid to seek power are forced to follow. Right now, VVR, you are one of those peons. But something has awoken in you…something has finally broken free of the bonds put in place by those who are manipulating you…and he wishes to get out…he wishes to help guide you to that power
....A smile spread across CC's face like nothing I had ever seen before. It seemed as though he had come to an epiphany even if I was still wavering. Suddenly my world seemed a lot smaller and I felt as though this may have been a mistake and not the way it should have gone. I needed this settled one way or another and strangely enough Casey had valid points, when Christian was in control I had power and control way beyond what I hoped for myself. He made me better....
Corey Casey
The real question is VVR…do you wish to become one of those with power…or do you like being a sheep? Do you want to be the one pulling the strings…or do you want to continue your dull existence pandering to the unwashed masses and falling in step with those who are pulling your strings?
"I wanted to just smile ear toear, and say of course I know exactly what I want bro. I want to rule the world, I want to be a dominant force here and in the ring. I WANT IT ALL!!! CC knew this was inside Vinnie, I could tell from the get go. I just had to bubble up to let him know I could do this....I nodded slipping in control for a brief second and finally being able to speak I said....
VVR
I’m in
....It was almost like that was what CC was waiting for. He smiled ear to ear,again, and handed me a piece of paper with an address on it. He told me to drive there and that all would be answered there. Still filled with fear and questions, I drove there as steadily as I could. I chuckled wondering if this is how people feel after they know they just made a deal with the devil....
The address turned out to be an old abandoned church. Eeriely enough, I could see a horror movie being made about this very topic being filmed here, it just had that on the edge of demonic quality about it.....I saw CC grab a duffel out of the back and he walked silently behind me. We broke out a basement window to get in and made our way inside.[/i]
CC led me down the main aisle of the church, and I tried to take it all in as we walked. He then led me down some stairs to the darkest, dankest level of the church. The musty smell was over powering, and looking back at CC I guess it held a place in his mind somewhere...I could almost see the meories playing in his mind....I could feel Christian bubbling up again and I just began to blabber as I tried to keep him at bay....
VVR
This place is kinda run down
...I said with a hint of nervousness, In the back of my mind Christian was chomping at the bit, telling me that everything was fro the better and whatever happened here would only be a help to us. Why did I still have that pit n my stomach telling me this might not be cool....Huh Christian tell me that....
We had walked down the hallway until we came to an old wooden door. The door had long metal beams across it, placed there by some priest or monk long ago in order to keep those who were placed inside from escaping. What in God's green Earth could CC be planning for me that would need a door that secure I muttered to myself.
The inside of the room consisted of a bed and a small toilet along with a sink. There was a small, barred window that showed the starry night sky above. I looked with a worried expression at the only light source in the room and then back at a expression of satisfaction on the face of my mentor. What could he possibly have in mind....
Corey Casey
This is it
CC got to work opening the duffel he had brought with him. He pulled a straightjacket and video camera out of the bag still with that look of satisfaction on his face....My spider sense went off like crazy seeing what he had brought with him, oh this won't be good I said to myself...[/i]
VVR
What’s with the straightjacket and camera?
I waited with baited breath, just to hear what sadistic torture he had planned for me. I had seen the aftermath of the "Sacrifice" and he was supposed to be "helping" me come to terms with my demons. He was helping I reminded myself....
Corey Casey
In order for you to release that which dwells within you…you must bind yourself as we did when we released our others. You must be bound in order to be helpless when it eventually comes time for you to be broken. You must completely put yourself at the mercy of your own mind and not be distracted by the strength and physical prowess that we both know that you possess…
I nodded as CC began by placing hte straight jacket over my arms, he tightened it down damn good...What in the hell could possibly happen that you needed a room like this and all this stuff just to unleash the real me. Couldn't you just use hypnosis or some shit I thought to myself....
" I like it my man, you know what you are doing....I took a spin around admiring his handiwork...It is only through a descent into madness that clarity can truly be reached. I am sure someone famous said that at some point, but it was a mine right now. I could feel a smile spreading across my lips as I looked at the bringer of my freedom....
CC removed the iron bars from the door and like a gentleman on a first date ushered me in first with a simple ....
Corey Casey
After you
...What in the hell could possibly be done with a straitjacket, a dank sub basement and a video camera to release Christian I thought to myself, but as per usual lately all my thoughts were not my own....
" He is trying to rid me of you, you sap...I cannot wait til it is me and all me in this meat sack. I am going to make all our dreams come true and more you just wait.....
Corey Casey
This camera is now recording…
...I watched the lil red light blinking and knew that everything that happens from here on out will be for one way or another saved forever, for good or bad, whatever happened over the next few days would change my life forever....
Corey Casey
Every single second of your experience here will be recorded…every thought you have that you want to vocalize shall be recorded on this disk. I am doing this so that you have a chance to look back on your experience here and realize the kindness that I have shown you and the greatness that I have played a small part in releasing in you.
...Before I can say Thank you, Fuck you or anything for that matter CC turns and leaves me alone with nothing but a blinking red light and a lunatic in the back of my mind....I can hear the heavy metal bars drop into place and the feeling of hopelessness is already creeping into my consciousness like the tide ebbs and flows....I can feel Christian chomping at the bit just waiting for the opportunity to pt my weakness down for good....
...I won't let you have me without a fight you bastard....I yell to no one in particular. "This is my choice and not yours. I am gonna make sure you feel everything just like I do....Have fun you son of a bitch...."
"Oh I will bub, This is gonna be fun!! I am gonna show you a side of us that you have never, ever seen before. You thought I ws just the one void of morals and consciousness of right and wrong. But I am SOOO MUCH MORE!!! Not only am I going to lift you to new heights but I am going to steer the fate of the IFW and the Chosen itself, FOREVER!!! I sensed something in Casey, he has a counterpoint to me in him and once the LORD and the GHOST get together you ain't seen nuthin yet bub....
So it was written…
…So it shall come to pass...
...Where the hell did that come from??
"I dunno pal, but I like it!!!